Grateful for so much this year.Read More
If you haven't noticed, I'm a planner. So, as you might expect, my hospital bag was filled to the brim with everything I might need for our newborn's arrival. In the chaos that was Adeline's birth, my bag didn't make it to the hospital. What the nurse brought me to wrap my baby in shocked me.Read More
I do not know your name.
I do not even remember your face. I vividly remember your heart.
It was the most devastating moment of my life. The one where I had to hand Adeline over to you, a stranger and say goodbye forever.Read More
It's that time of year—a time for reflection and celebration.
Yesterday was the 4th of July—a time when our nation reflects and celebrates our past.
It's also time for self-evaluations at my office—a time for reflection on professional accomplishments.
These moments, these days of reflection and celebration, can be so complicated, especially if you don't want to think about or remember the past. For some, the thought of looking back is scary as hell because opening a window to the past can create an avalanche of emotions.Read More
We have a running joke in our house about how Josh is "super awesome." The funny thing is it's actually true!
Today is our anniversary. Two years. 24 short months of marriage. We've been through quite a lot in those 24 months. More than many couples endure in a lifetime. We've cried deep soulful tears together. We've leaned on each other. We've supported each other. We've been honest and real with each other.Read More
Like many others, I spent yesterday (Father's Day) celebrating my husband. It was a beautiful and yet difficult day.
We've found so much peace when we embrace nature, so Josh wanted to spend the day exploring. We booked a day trip to a couple scenic spots nearby. As we listened to the sounds of nature, I couldn't help but think of my dad. As those thoughts arose, I suppressed them. Not wanting to remember.
My dad passed away a year ago today.Read More
Have you ever felt overwhelmed with the amount of decisions you have to make? Have you ever thought, if I have to make one more decision I might completely shut down? I've been there too. That place where even the simplest decisions, like deciding what what to eat for dinner becomes challenging. During a recent conversation, a friend asked me if I'd consider using the word "and" instead of "but" in my speech. With the switch of a word, I felt liberated.Read More
With Mother’s Day is approaching, I’ve been considering what it means to be to be Adeline’s mom. How do you reconcile being a mom of a child you cannot hold? I was brousing through my photos recently and this one always stands out to me. It reminds me of a moment, during a trip to Lake Tahoe, shortly after Adeline passed away.Read More